Day Two - Resolutions

I never really got into making New Year's resolutions. Not because I was all cool or "with it" (whatever "it" is), but mainly because I have always been lazy for that sort of thing. The things I want to change are always the same. I worry about my weight, my savings and my happiness. Which pretty much encompasses everything in life.

But when I think about Ryan getting here in 44 days, I start inevitably wondering about all the everything I have to make right by then. The first one would be, of course, my weight. There are at least ten pounds that won't get to meet the boyfriend, if I have it my way. The other would be my hair. It is such a mess right now. I want it to be silky an beautiful for him.

I will level with you, actually. He has seen me. He likes me the way I am. Which means nothing to me. I love him so much, I actually want to come right out of a Disney old timey cartoon when I see him. I want his eyes to pop out (different cartoon studio). I want to see drool. His, preferably. Not because I think he'd care more about me, not because I care one iota about things like that, but mostly because I can't keep saying I love him. There must be a way for my whole person to show him I do.

Now, I am off to the gym. See what I can do about it. Yesterday we phone texted in rhyme for hours. He is the one man I would put myself through the hell of cardio for.